That Funk

Soooooo.....this morning came rather quickly, tapping me on the forehead and grinning widely--I turned and stuck out my tongue, and I admit, cussed in my head (this 100% internal cussing can no longer be helped since coming to Arkansas....). Blast you new day, and all your promises I thought to myself...

You know how days start blending and can start to S E E M  L I K E  T H E  S A M E.....a little monotonous? You feelin' me? Same old cereal, same old songs on the radio, same grumpy old man on the bus...

And you inhale deeply....
And you look for things to help you hold on--like that delicious cheese stick in your lunch.
And you think about how you used to be fun...

Argh! When did I get boring?!?! I'm telling you--law school is sucking the life out of me! The other day I laughed out loud at a joke for the first time in a week, and almost fell out of my chair because I was so startled with myself!! But I'm working on this. I realize that my loss of "spice" will only give me heart problems, gray hair, and possibly a liking for Good n Plenty. I just need to get out of this funk. I will. I wonder what would happen if I put pink streaks in my hair....


P.S. cheese sticks are still totally awesome--DO NOT get down on yourself if they're the highlight of your day.

A Place To Gather

A lot of people ask me why I decided to go to law school and what I hope to do after law school. I usually give them vague answers like "practice law" (go figure), "help people" (of course), or "we'll see--not sure". The thing is I know exactly what I want after law school, though I know it'll take me a while to get there. The ultimate career/educational goal though? Here it is:

I want a barn. Something like this:

Now this barn isn't for animals--it's for people. Gatherings specifically. The goal is that, after years of working at a firm, as a sole practitioner, whatever, I can continue to educate people about the law. This may sound kind of silly and idealistic, but I'm stuck on it. Years down the road, i'll be able to invite members of the community to the barn once a week or so, and have educational lectures--for example, one night, it's "learn about your property rights," the next week, it's "how to prepare a contract," and when important legal issues arise within the community, the country, or the world even, those can also be discussed as well.

I think one of the most important things we can do to make our lives better in such a crazy world, is to keep communication open with our neighbors. I suppose it's my future endeavor to serve--and in return, I hope it helps build a strong place to raise a family, and feel safe. As King Benjamin taught: "When ye are in the service of your fellow beings, ye are only in the service of your God." (Mosiah 2:17) Each of us is responsible for doing our part in betterment of the world. I often get discouraged with the way things are going; how the evils of the world tend to get worse and worse, with no light at the end of the tunnel. But I know that giving up is not the answer. The spirits within us are God-given--created for a divine purpose--and we have to give all that we can to promote that purpose.

In the beginning...

So tonight I was just about to go to bed, and I realized that I still needed to set my alarm. The thing is though, that I'm still on Christmas vacation, and have absolutely no reason at all to wake up early tomorrow morning. I could literally lie in bed ALL DAY and nothing would happen. Nobody would tell me to get up; no impending doom would befall me. Yet I still set my alarm. Why?  I think I'm afraid I'll miss out on life if I sleep in. This has been a problem most of my adult life, but oh well.

In other news, I'm starting a blog. I have no idea yet who i'll tell about it, but I wouldn't count on it being that great, since I got a B in creative writing, and an A in technical writing. I never said I was a good English major, but hey, language is arbitrary....